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I can't wait until the boy I love knows my middle name.

If it was that easy to be skinny

"I do this thing where I think I'm real sick, but I won't go to the doctor to find about it." Rilo Kiley


I had this really crazy dream last night. Basically it wrapped up my life in 7 hours...but in my dream it felt like 7 minutes (7 minutes in hell or 7 minutes in heaven...read on)

I went back to my pre-school, but it wasn't my pre-school, it was a castle. Ruins of a castle, actually. People kept telling me that I was going to succeed. And I did. I had so many people looking out for me, I had it all, really. I did. The heat in the apartment was on. I was never cold. I never had to pretend I was someone that I was not. I kept typing away until I finalized that masterpiece. I felt satisfied.

I wish I wasn't so judgemental toward myself. I wish I wasn't judgemental toward anyone. However, I guess I am. I went from 360 to barely 60. I lost my momentum when I lost myself. I'm slowly getting myself back to normalcy.

to be continued....

(i'm really tired)

that's philly for ya

I need a notebook whenever I go into the bathroom. I was held hostaged tonight at mad river (I keed I keed)

I shoved and sweated my way to the bathroom just for this:

sadly this is all i could get down : " I don't appreciate it when I come home and you have hickey's on your neck when our children are around."



Several moments later

word for word "Just because we have children together doesn't mean nothing."

True Story #29384

The mall in my hometown had this fabulous new store called "Glamour Shots". Yes, you know the one I'm talking about. With it's flashy pink neon sign and glorious smell of aquanet, I was drawn to that place. I was all about signing up for free things so of course I put myself on the list to get some free pictures taken.

This was ages ago so I'm not sure how long it took them to pick me out of the raffle or whatever, but I ended up getting a call. Mind you I was in 6th grade, pre-braces and pretty much obsessed with all things Jonathan Taylor Thomas. My best friend and I traded off carrying around this crinkly old magazine centerfold of him from Tiger Beat magazine.

My older sister was feeling jealous so she made my mom bring her as well. I didn't mind because I knew my pictures were going to be fabulous and I was going to be famous somehow. Besides my sister was growing a really nice unibrow. In the bathroom I frantically searched for Nair to rid myself of the bleach blond fuzz on my legs. However, my mom found me as I was pouring the stinky goop into my hands. Unfortunately she thought I was too young and said no to Nair.

The day finally came! I went in and they did my hair, my makeup (pink lipstick, probably blue or green eyeshadow, and a coating of very orange concealer) and I transformed into the hottest 12 year old ever. Next came the best part - picking out my 3 outfits!!

In my memory I browsed through racks and racks of sequins, glitter, feathers, red suede, etc etc. I'm sure the rack was like 6 feet long and filled with ex prom queens throw-a-ways. But I recall being in heaven.

My three outfits, well tops, because that was all they were going to shoot (bummer)were some gems. The first was a red, white, and blue sequined blazer with mega shoulder pads, the second was a purple glitter sequined blazer, and the third was some awful denim and suede cowgirl jacket. My sister picked one out and the lady worker told us she thought it would be cute for us to pose together in it. I wanted to barf. How dare my sister intrude on my one true shining star moment that was going to propel me to Hollywood for a guest spot on "Home Improvement"?

Various picturs were taken while mall peeps wrestled to see the awesome-ness that was happening within the store. After the photos were taken we got to pick a couple and then the rest we had to pay for. Well my sister and I went a little crazy and made out mom buy at least 2 of each, unless we were mid-blink had lipstick on our teeth.

I still have the wallet sized photo I was going to send to JTT somewhere in my parent's house. It was of me in the purple sequined blazer professing my love for him and how we should meet and go out and get slurpees. I also asked him if his sitcom brothers felt like real brothers and if I could be his girlfriend.

I wonder why I never sent it to him?

whoahhhhhh oh oh

I have been in fantasy land for a couple weeks. In other words I have been sharpening my brain, like you do a dull knife. I hate February!! I have never liked that month. It's like lazy and so inadequate compared to the rest. Not to mention, that fucking short month drags like fucking elephantiasis. (totally probably spelled it wrong by the way...i know there is a weird A in there somewhere though). yawn.

I have been working on some things. I'm super excited for a short film idea I came up with. Rosalie and I wrote the dialogue (hi rosalie I love you) and had a blast writing it. Laughter is the key to life, not money, power, respect....(oh rappers).

Rosalie is super talented. When we get the finished copy of "PINHEADS" I am so gonna shovel the fuck out of it....I just made a new meaning for that expression. It means I am going to send it to people I still know in LA.

Recipe for fun

My bff and I are obsessed with the idea of making pot brownies. But we are stuck. We don't really hang out with anyone that smokes weed. I don't live in LA anymore so I can't just run to the nearest farmacy. (Damn you Philly for not having medicinal mary J).

Then last night it came to me...I finally pinpointed someone that could provide some righteous green. My Aunt!!! You heard it hear first folks, my aunt loves to get high or at least she did.




Apparently last year my aunt and uncle got into a fight. He was drunk and called the police on her and informed them of her stash. Well her stash was a box full of numerous bongs, bowls, papers, etc. This indeed came as a shock to me since my aunt is a recovering alcoholic and has been sober for a while now. But then I pictured it. My aunt up in the mountains sitting in her basement on some old orange sofa surrounded by her three cats and two dogs smoking the ganj.

At the end of the summer I was at the shore with my family and my aunt was there. I was a little drunk so I started asking her about her weed days. Little did I know that she was still smoking it. Like she just went outside and did!!!

Therefore my aunt may be the one lady I can turn to to help me make pot brownies. She might even have a good recipe.

Really people all I wanna do is eat some pot brownies and watch america's funniest home videos!!!


Blogger's note - I have smoked pot before, it's just not for me. The only time I have enjoyed it was when I was smoking and watching AFV. I'd rather eat it, with cool whip on top and maybe sprinkles!

Flashback like whoa!

For those that have not seen this movie. Go rent now. It might only be available in VHS form but it's worth it!!

The first time I saw it was when I was like maybe 12 or something. I was staying home from school, probably "sick" and this little gem popped on HBO. Yep my parent's were subscribers, yet I still bought my clothes at Bradlees (oh another flashback). Actually Bradless was the shit. Come back Bradlees. Ok sorry totally off topic.

The movie is about Polly and Natalie. Polly is a total sex feen and talks about it constantly while Natalie is this preppy do-gooder. The ending is brills when they rollerskate down the street throughout the entire credits.

Go rent now. It's already on my netflix queue!!!

Things that irritate me Part 1

This magazine that I used to be incredibly fond of, mostly for its ability to waste hours of my day is officially o-v-e-r. Well it's going digital, but we all know what that means.

Anywhoozle, I posted something on the blog a couple of days ago and I checked to make sure it posted and it did. A couple of hours later, I see my comment was removed and a new topic was discussed involving my comment. I'd really like to know why this happened? And if you can't come up with your own ideas, maybe you shouldn't write for a magazine...just a suggestion. I'm totally not that pissed off, but I believe that credit should be given where credit is due or some ish along those lines!!!!!!!



***Sorry if you have used the above picture before in a blog, your myspace bulletin, facebook, etc. I don't have photoshop so I can't really make my own. Thanks internets

Where is your Charlie Day?

My roommate, who happens to also be my bestest friend ever, and I are in love with Charlie from It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia. We cried together when we found out he was married in real life to the coffee chick and thought of ways to break them up. Then I realized, "hey I can't hurt Charlie."

The truth is every girl should have a Charlie. He's the perfect man. He's hilarious, he can't read (hey you can teach him, aww cute bonding experience), he runs a bar (hello free drinks), and he's not superhot so you won't get jealous when other girls check him out.

Mt bff and I were out on Saturday and these dudes waved us over to their table. So after a little deliberating we went over. The conversation wasn't awful but the guys weren't that interesting. They pointed out the one guy as the "funny one" but he barely spoke and when he did it was clearly not funny. I decided to share with my new company about how I am looking for a Charlie Day. They happened to actually be it's always sunny fans too.




At this point I was a little buzzed and don't really remember what they were talking about nor did I care, because as I sat there drinking my imported beer, I decided I will not settle for just anyone. I need a dude like Charlie to keep me on my toes and to let me borrow his thermal underwear when I sleep over.

You are the leader of your destiny

Today I had a job interview for a position I would seriously kill people for! I really hope it went well. I think it did.

I was thinking about how things are falling into place pretty well for me these days and am so grateful for it all. Believe me when I tell you, 2008 was rough for me. I felt like I was suffocating in a massive swamp surrounded by demons, zombies, circus clowns, etc. I didn't know when that would disappear, but slowly the zombies died off, the circus clowns hopped on the train for their next destination, and I kicked all the demons asses back to hell. Hopefully they will stay there and not bother any of you!

I can't wait for my asos clothes to come in the mail!!!

Have a rad weekend slatersons!

For all the fashionistas and fashion dreamers

www.polyvore.com


Check this site.

The most outstanding part of the site is that users can make up their own sets. You can put together an outfit, including accessories, shoes, etc. and tag the items so other users can buy it. It looks like a page in magazines but is put together by people like you..and you and even me!

This is one of my favorites :


"Sheer" Genius by ♥✿PaintHead

sex and the innocents

Future short story is in the works. I have the concept drawn out and the title (see above). I have missed writing. I got lazy and "distracted". I will write about anything just to see the pen float across the page. I will write anything just to feel the keyboards bounce under my fingertips.

I have all these thoughts and ideas floating around in my head. This normally happens when I am trying to fall asleep. I am excited to finish this story. Maybe I will develop a screenplay for it.

My head is finally clear and ready to export my concepts into my art, my passion.

The truth will set you free?

It's not something I talk about ever. When I do talk about it, it comes out as something that really wasn't that big of a deal, so nonchalant. But the truth is it was and is a big deal. I'm afraid that if I keep hiding it and pushing the memory away, it will form a cancerous tumor in the pit of my stomach.

Obviously this year has been one of the most tumultuous ones yet. I remember this time last year thinking 2008 is going to be MY year, that I was going to do something spectacular, worth while, meaningful. I spent the first half of this year numb, withdrawn from friends and family. I think about that time now and all I feel and see is darkness. It's an unpleasant vision in my mind to see me sitting in a room alone trying to forget, writing things down that didn't make sense, laughing at the wrong part of a sitcom. It was a waste but the truth is I needed that. I needed to see what it would feel like to "hit rock bottom" to let any semblence of myself fade away.

I feel like I'm discovering a whole new person, something that should have happened years ago, I guess. I'm less afraid, fascinated by more things than I can hold in my brain. I'm less healthy, but awake. I don't want people to read this and start questioning me. The truth is I am fine. I am happier than I have been in years and am actually excited and anxious to live my life. This year was the biggest struggle for me but I know if I can survive that I can survive anything.

Music and Films and Films about music and musicians

Watch the movie CONTROL. Watch it, watch it even if you hate Joy Divison. Well no don't watch it if you hate Joy Division because that's just odd. Thats like eating an apple when you don't really like apples or painting you fingernails teal but hating the color teal.

I watched this last night in the warmth of my bed and realized I love movies that relate to music. Most, if not all of my favorite movies have an intense theme involving music, musicians, and the culture. Maybe I will direct music videos, maybe I will write a screenplay involving music (oh wait that's a work in progress) or something along those lines. It's like tying two loves together and what is more perfect than that?

Trailer action

The curse of the trouble seeker

I can be angry and I can be bitter, but I choose happiness.

And I know I am a better person because of it.

The CHRIST-tastic list my of favorite christmas flicks!

Being back on the east coast makes the holidays seem more like the holidays. I'm not walking around westwood in a short sleeved shirt and flip flops. Instead I am bundled to the max in sweaters, scarves, hats and whatever else I can get my hands on when I leave the house. Living in LA, it was hard to really get in the holiday spirit. For some reason this year I find myself already keeping the christmas station on in the car (a thing I have hated for years) and totally singing along. To get more festive I have decided to list my favorite Christmas movies of all time!

Love Actually
Mega awesome cast and cute love stories during the holidays in London, need I say more. Ohai Colin Firth!


National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation
Total family tradition to watch this around the holidays. Definitely gets the most laughs and who doesn't love Randy Quaid?


Forrest Gump
I must have seen this for the first time around Christmas because for some reason I always get the urge to watch it this time of year.

It's A Wonderful Life
Hard to believe I have only seen this one time and it was um er right around this time last year. oops.

Little Women
My favorite movie when I was a teenager. Who didn't want Teddy (yum Christian Bale) living next door to them?

Elf
Probably the most recent quote worthy Christmas flick. Will Ferrell wearing yellow tights anyone?

Home Alone
Macaulay Culkin before "The Good Son"

Die Hard
No you didn't read that wrong. I said it Die Hard. My favorite action movie that promotes the holiday spirit!

A Nightmare Before Christmas
Kind of like two Holidays in one plus some singing!!

Mickey's Christmas Carol
I have seen mostly all of the twists on A Christmas Carol but this is by far my favorite.

Babes in Toyland
The Drew Barrymore-Keanu Reeves one. I haven't seen the original.

Scrooged
Billy Murray is one of the many loves of my life.

A Christmas Story
Nothing like 24 hours of air time to remind you that it is indeed Christmas.


*None of these are in any kind of order.

Happiness is discovering new photography

I'm never very good at describing art and what it says to me, but these photos are very inspiring. The way the photographer plays with the light and how it reflects off of certain areas is calming to me. I haven't really loved many photographers other than Guy Bourdin and Mapplethorpe but I found a new one (Lina Scheynius) and I enjoy her.


These are some of my favorites...















http://www.linascheynius.com/
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and my absolute favorite
http://www.guybourdin.org/

New York amongst other things

I'm very super excited to be going to NYC this Saturday. It's been too long. Over 3 years I'm guessing. I think I'll be completely lost there but that's probably my favorite thing about it. I would so go into F.A.O. Schwartz and make a muppet for KTK that resembles her and Kermit combined but I imagine that store to be completely packed as it always is.

In other news I am finally getting back in shape. I have had the motivation for a while but no money to join a gym. It feels great to finally be active and productive. How funny is it that you dread the gym so much but then somehow you become addicited to it?

I had a dream a couple weeks ago about a boy I have never met, we fell in love but I could never make out his face. Do you ever wonder if people are dreaming about you that you have never met? Or if you dream about someone from your past, maybe they are dreaming of you at the exact same time. I like to believe that is true.

unspoken loves

Peppermint hot chocolate

morning leaves

city slickers

empty ashtrays

dad's oversized dress shirts

missbehave

raspy voices

twilight

cherry blossoms

banana bread

southern charm

black and white polaroids

roof decks

sushi sundays

Most awkward commercial ever

sick