If it was that easy to be skinny

"I do this thing where I think I'm real sick, but I won't go to the doctor to find about it." Rilo Kiley


I had this really crazy dream last night. Basically it wrapped up my life in 7 hours...but in my dream it felt like 7 minutes (7 minutes in hell or 7 minutes in heaven...read on)

I went back to my pre-school, but it wasn't my pre-school, it was a castle. Ruins of a castle, actually. People kept telling me that I was going to succeed. And I did. I had so many people looking out for me, I had it all, really. I did. The heat in the apartment was on. I was never cold. I never had to pretend I was someone that I was not. I kept typing away until I finalized that masterpiece. I felt satisfied.

I wish I wasn't so judgemental toward myself. I wish I wasn't judgemental toward anyone. However, I guess I am. I went from 360 to barely 60. I lost my momentum when I lost myself. I'm slowly getting myself back to normalcy.

to be continued....

(i'm really tired)